These Sun..Times

Today is a strange day- Dec 20-2011

I feel that a lot of my inquiries about our nature, our history, our mental abilities, religions, origins of words, and the SUN.. has me targeted for some reason.. maybe i am just experiencing a number of possible reasonably explanations..like beta testing or somekind of UN-announced testing of a program platform - like that amazon (knows where your going based on your recent moves) program, or a tracking one for all my spamming or security firm that is private like a black water type for w/e reasons. But I also feel like since so much info is out there its hard to truly establish what is coincidence, consciousness, or divine intervention.. I have found a something that concerns me. When someone finds info that shouldnt, there is usually a lot that can happen to the person that found it.. Sometimes they are harassed to see if they can mess up or lead to something or someone bigger, sometimes they are made out to be unstable or have a mental disorder or problem to discredit what they are saying, sometimes they are noticed and helped to make a positive shift(i like this one).. though the word positive must be defined.. We are living in socially closed - opened - micromanaged times.. and i feel it will only get worse.. that and the weather.. That sun.. SOlar flares.. SuperNovas.. I feel something could be done..but to what could be, or what will be is all in the realm of the potential. Life Just Is.

But if i die sooner then later.. i would wonder what my actual death would be from rather then what is said or told...