1-4-2011 - same person i used to be?

Should i talk about the future? should i not? Should i allow for things to happen- do i make things happen? how to mix the two..desire? excitement? do i crave such things? None of my "friends" said happy new year, merry christmas, w/e... these are just days...and i feel meaningless to most i suppose...i feel distant from life...yet i live life everyday...what is forward motion? how can one establish forward or any direction when no matter what i do i seem to b a bother to everyone..an annoyance...

so backtrack... Spent Xmass eve and day @PSN's She did a very badass drawing, gave me some other things too. NYE was a different evening...the party we were booked for didnt happen and we ended up doing a small thng @ AutoAxon's - we had over an hour set (=

No fights, no orgy's, no dui's so i guess good-

what is beyond my control...what is life?

it's 2011...

Album pushed back until March.