01-08-08

sickness.

Went to the urgent care on sunday b/c i had a high fever, chest/body pains, and lots of grossness coming from my lungs. They didnt tell me what i had/have but they gave me meds after hooking me up with a breathing machine and all that fun shit. Jeanette stayed with me most of the time of me being sick and that really showes how much she cares... Sum ghey shit though, my mom drove her home b4 we went to the urgent care and she didnt believe that she lived where she was Dropped off. WTF? i really dont like who my mom is anymore. Work is turning into one huge problem, day after day and one screw up after another. The survivial of this business is not looking too good. I guess MEMF (Midwest Electronic Music Fest) will be in chicago in the end of June. Still no laptop so i doubt id be able to get booked there with enough material for an hr set unless all older stuff is used. alot has been running through my mind and lifes direction is generally in a cloudy daze. I hope my body gets better soon. i will try very hard to keep off speed. it has been almost 2 months clean. on a side note, Squared went to the meeting where people that have DUI's have to get yell'd at by people whos family members were killed by drunk drivers... and He wore a Captin Morgan Shirt and the people ther got sooo pissed off @ him... Classic :)
the evilness can help or hinder in this life. only time will tell.