12-24-07

Christmas Eve-2007

The Kompute xmas party was ok, kinda small this year but nice nontheless. Alex was bangn sum bomb tunes, Jeanette looked pretty and dave was ok too. Justins fri flight got cancelled and came in on saturday late, but his phone died and sum confusion entailed. Chilled with Jeanette in my room until 4 then we attened this after party form the rave on sat night but I got refused b/c too many people. The Last time that happened Angel was ther and got me right in, but he wasnt ther this time so we went back to my house to sleep for a while and got her home by 11. Finally met up with Justin on Sunday and all i can say is retardeddd Wax wow..Jagur redbull DnB's the Datum.. worked on a track to at his place. why i am i here? I was here in chicago b.c. i was planning on spending my x mas with sam and her family but she ended it so that was no longer an option... so i have been here trying to erase those memories. Jeanette is still making it clear we are not Dating but she says she has found love for me in a special friend kind of way... how do I open up to that? a love non love? what we have is good and i do not wish to change it but its hard to hold up position and with my mind so confused yet blank. to be happy is to not think.