New Years Eve-

well it's 12-31-07....weird
im working till 7pm

i had an Amazing saturday night. Dave myself and Jeanette went to Mr. Bobbys b-day @ Dannys new place. It was a really really really fun time. We were Vip and brought sum booze for Danny n Bobby. Danny was BLaZn on the Decks gettn Trash'd Very very Very trashed Jeanette was making out with girls and it was great. Art show that was kinda funny, Lots of people, Joe Vortec playd sum very decent tunes and Cops came( i think 9 squad cars) around 2am and they were very nice and we made it home all drunk and stupid. Had an awesome time with Jeanette after we got home ;] .
yea it was pretty much a rave. now tonight its snowing and the I love Gold party danny's playing at is 21+ and iwanted to be with jeanette but she might go to dekalb and dave will be with his lady friend whos pretty kool( almost kooler then us, she has already seen rubber johnny) so i might just be alone tonight. Sam is going to B and linds and thats good she needs friends to help her get through our break up. Tim is having people over for a bean fest and i like my brain. if i eat any ill totally go into a bad depression and Jeanette is trying soooo hard to keep me happy and its working, but yea i need it to be successful in life. all and all these days are like raindrops of the storm that is my life. All is there but what is the meaning? My life directly affects many other lives. i am the key element to whatever this is. Will i really be alone on New Years? oh well its ok. I did start making a song the other day... lets see how that comes out....
I should remeber that the baby shrek is named Nugget. i almost forgot that P.S.N picked that.

12-26-07

mind traffic.

thoughts have caused mental accidents and the roads with smoke filled clouds that twist and trun these dark patchs that fill my light.

everyday we face choices that can affect our lives and the lives around us. like tree branches splitting out yet all coming to an end. dreams and memories can haunt ones daily activites. justin dave myself jeanette Shells Jayjo samples ian and a bunch of other were all drinking @ cap's last night then jeanette went back to my house and i thnk we pasted out aound 9am this moring and yea like a totally of 6 maybe but not counting from the night prior what a x-mas present in a sense. I took my labret out the other night, part of growing up. Sam has been txting me and its really annoying i dont know what she wants. my life is now so different, Jeanette and i have found a very speical love for each other and i am glad we have what we have. what has my life come to. I have totally almost given up on moving to LA or taking that bi monthly showcase in FL. i need sleep.

from 12-21-07

backdated

Here @ work waiting to leave to start my Vaction from school. Last night Jeanette came over and crashed @ my house.. though we didnt sleep, talking and what not. Its funny how talking can make you realize how abstract life can be. voices and thoughts swirling around causing a storm or emotions to run rampid in the shores of my mind. tonight is a Kompute Record Lable x-mas party and Justin in coming in from L.A.
so lets see how this goes

12-24-07

Christmas Eve-2007

The Kompute xmas party was ok, kinda small this year but nice nontheless. Alex was bangn sum bomb tunes, Jeanette looked pretty and dave was ok too. Justins fri flight got cancelled and came in on saturday late, but his phone died and sum confusion entailed. Chilled with Jeanette in my room until 4 then we attened this after party form the rave on sat night but I got refused b/c too many people. The Last time that happened Angel was ther and got me right in, but he wasnt ther this time so we went back to my house to sleep for a while and got her home by 11. Finally met up with Justin on Sunday and all i can say is retardeddd Wax wow..Jagur redbull DnB's the Datum.. worked on a track to at his place. why i am i here? I was here in chicago b.c. i was planning on spending my x mas with sam and her family but she ended it so that was no longer an option... so i have been here trying to erase those memories. Jeanette is still making it clear we are not Dating but she says she has found love for me in a special friend kind of way... how do I open up to that? a love non love? what we have is good and i do not wish to change it but its hard to hold up position and with my mind so confused yet blank. to be happy is to not think.

Why im glad i live in chicago

today is the 20th of Dec. I havent blogged in a little bit. Life is crazy. Dave and I have really aided in the (i am legand) track with Alex. we even worked on that @ my house for a few hours. I have been spending alot of time with Jeanette and gettin past sam. Though Sam sent me a myspace after a few weeks of no contact.. I have been trying to forget her and everything that my life consisted of during that time, but there is always something that reminds me of how things were. i know things will never be like that again, and even dave comments how happy i am nowadays. Krista has been reminding me of how things were sooo much different when iwas 17-18 and i am glad i have her to talk to. Colette has been still showing me love and i could be Booked @ Stellar Spark in Milwakee Wisco for News Year..but i doubt ill go. I do not understand how my life works but i continue on this forward motion. I love all those close to me, its sad that Kyle is now a traveling manager and Dee is going to Colorado... but i will stay on my tasks, my current goals for 2008: get in shape, graduate school, get a good paying job and get a release on vinyle.

its been awhile 12-06-07

Here @ work on my day off. things have been going...alot of chill nights, fun at the studio with Dave, Jeanette Alex Marko n sum kittyfood, ect...Finally got to hang out with her for a lil while and it was nice. things with the Y.M. (J) have been very fun and helpful. its funny how life can twist and turn like a elevator from DR. Suess. School is almost out for the month and i finally took my Mac sumplace to see if it can be saved. getting past all old memories with the aid of the people who are becoming close to me has helped me alot. Jeanette is going to school in Jan and problly moving downtown. Im still considering if i should stay in IL or move to LA. sooo much shit on my mind. Bang is just about a dead issue but the ghosts will always have there shadows.
Dave is employeed and in a somewhat of a better mood. Colette has been really awesome and she is playin here on Saturday and i would like to have aleast 2 tracks done with Dave and Alex and even Marko to give to her then. i also started to write somthing again.
i love all my friends-
thank you all